Good news! I am not a casualty of war this week. It's been a hard one across the board, just re-adjusting to routine that's dictated more by student needs than my own. Mine seem pretty low on the totem at this stage of adjustment. I am down ONE POUND from last Saturday, putting me at -27 for the year and down 4 1/2 for the month of August. Clean slate. New month. I'm going to lower my expectations and shoot for 5 pounds a month, and then wallow in the glory if I can exceed that goal. I need something to wallow in and it need not be doom, gloom and self-pity. These four weeks have been turbulent, so a 4.5 loss is still a victory. My tendency is to ride a downward spiral into a black abyss when things don't go my way. It's a learned behavior that needs modification. I learned it over a course of 45 years and it had reinforcements; I have steadily gained awareness over the past 23, but have only been working on change for 6 weeks. I should also mention while pulling up my boot straps, of the 27 pounds gone since December, 15 of them have been in response to conscious efforts in the aforementioned 6 weeks. No shame there! This month was good testament to the shift that's taking place. I didn't go deep into the abyss, but felt the suction and spent a lot of energy to breathe through my nose and not succumb to the forces that seemingly were against me, both real and imagined. I'm getting better at differentiating and setting boundaries...perimeters, as I like to say.
Today I'm doing something fun in addition to the usual laundry and de-dog-hairing my house. We have a new Superintendent and Assistant Superintendent starting Wednesday. We, as a faculty and staff, are putting together gift baskets for each, kind of a collection of our personal talents outside of teaching. A little giving of ourselves as a down home welcome. I'm making some cookies. Not just ANY cookie! These are way cool! They are a work of art! I'll post pictures tomorrow night. It's a process...make dough, chill dough, roll dough, cut dough, bake dough, cool cookies, PAINT cookies, dry cookies, dry cookies some more, attempt to stack cookies, find that cookies need to dry more...I'm excited about it. I haven't done anything outside-the-box in a while. It's fun when you get to reveal hidden talents and have people see you in a different light.
Tomorrow my in-laws are popping in for a visit. They've been in the area to help my sister-in-law out; she's having a health crisis and has 2 children with disabilities to care for by day while brother-in-law works. Nice that they're coming, you know, since it's just me here. Son might be here depending on when they come. He's in the woods today. Tomorrow he wants some down time to swim "off the clock" with friends. We both need a little time off the clock this weekend. Off to begin mine! :)
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